Black Cats, Blustery Days & a bit of Mad Genius for Living
Sorry I've been a crappy blogger, though I don't know who I am apologizing to, as I probably have no more readers, cos this blog has been a total snoozefest.
It's time for me to get back on track here. I have much to share, it just hasn't been making it's way out of me. There is so much happening in my life under the radar. However, not writing about it means I've been too busy living it, which is A-okay by me.
* I deeply adore someone who awes me to my very core.
* I am facing my deepest and most pernicious fears in life.
* I am learning to love myself more, and celebrate all that makes me, me.
* I am making better choices about who I choose to have in my life; which has primarily meant putting some distance between myself and ex-boyfriends, and ex-lovers who have wanted to be a part of my life as friends, when that is not healthy or appropriate for me. Which reminds me of some salient lyrics from the new Evanescence CD -- "...I won't be held back by who I used to be..."
* I am enjoying the Fall like you wouldn't believe. Autumn is my favorite season of the year, and I am reveling in it as much as possible.
* I am keeping my eyes wide open to any opportunity to do something good for another person. Today it was telling the management at Dave & Busters to please announce that a particular car had it's lights on. It's very small, but if I prevented someone from coming out after having fun playing games only to find their battery dead, well, that would be a wonderful thing.
* I treated myself to a "Me" day today for the sake of sheer indulgence and the joy of being alive. I went to my therapy appointment, and afterward, had a Chinese buffet lunch, browsed my favorite comic book store and bought four back issues of my all time favorite comic/graphic novel series "Strangers in Paradise" on sale -- w00t! I then proceeded to a drive-in Starbucks for a Venti Caramel Macchiato. Someone let me in on a busy roadway to go in. I waved appreciatively. When I came out, I let two people in on the same busy roadway, to do my part to foster more civility, patience and kindness on this island. Then I went to Dave & Busters to play arcade games, and skeeball. I played ALL FOUR versions of "the House of the Dead" game, in which I definitely kicked the motherload of Zombie boot-tay -- awwww yeah. Then I went to AC Moore Arts & Crafts store, and scored some cheap but nice soft yarn, a Wilton round cake pan on a ridiculous sale, and a deep garnet red velvet shawl/scarf with lace edging and I used a 40% off coupon on it. Score! I then proceeded to The Avenue store, where I got footless black tights, *rawk*! and a pair of footed black tights as well. Then I came home, pretty tired from my fun day out, steamed some fresh broccoli to go with my Fettucine Alfredo leftovers from the Italian restaurant my very nuclear family ate at Monday night. Then I did a little emailing, and downloaded some old tunes that fit my swoony state right now: "Orange Colored Sky" By Nat King Cole and "It had to be you" by Ol' Blue Eyes, and Billie, et al (it's a standard, many people have sang it). Then my sweetheart called. Then we talked 'til three, and now, here I am, in the present moment, sleepy and ready to seek out slumber. Goodnight Gentle Reader, if by chance you have passed this way. My black cat has just sidled on up to me, and whilst rubbing against my hand, bids thee a very good night as well.
It's time for me to get back on track here. I have much to share, it just hasn't been making it's way out of me. There is so much happening in my life under the radar. However, not writing about it means I've been too busy living it, which is A-okay by me.
* I deeply adore someone who awes me to my very core.
* I am facing my deepest and most pernicious fears in life.
* I am learning to love myself more, and celebrate all that makes me, me.
* I am making better choices about who I choose to have in my life; which has primarily meant putting some distance between myself and ex-boyfriends, and ex-lovers who have wanted to be a part of my life as friends, when that is not healthy or appropriate for me. Which reminds me of some salient lyrics from the new Evanescence CD -- "...I won't be held back by who I used to be..."
* I am enjoying the Fall like you wouldn't believe. Autumn is my favorite season of the year, and I am reveling in it as much as possible.
* I am keeping my eyes wide open to any opportunity to do something good for another person. Today it was telling the management at Dave & Busters to please announce that a particular car had it's lights on. It's very small, but if I prevented someone from coming out after having fun playing games only to find their battery dead, well, that would be a wonderful thing.
* I treated myself to a "Me" day today for the sake of sheer indulgence and the joy of being alive. I went to my therapy appointment, and afterward, had a Chinese buffet lunch, browsed my favorite comic book store and bought four back issues of my all time favorite comic/graphic novel series "Strangers in Paradise" on sale -- w00t! I then proceeded to a drive-in Starbucks for a Venti Caramel Macchiato. Someone let me in on a busy roadway to go in. I waved appreciatively. When I came out, I let two people in on the same busy roadway, to do my part to foster more civility, patience and kindness on this island. Then I went to Dave & Busters to play arcade games, and skeeball. I played ALL FOUR versions of "the House of the Dead" game, in which I definitely kicked the motherload of Zombie boot-tay -- awwww yeah. Then I went to AC Moore Arts & Crafts store, and scored some cheap but nice soft yarn, a Wilton round cake pan on a ridiculous sale, and a deep garnet red velvet shawl/scarf with lace edging and I used a 40% off coupon on it. Score! I then proceeded to The Avenue store, where I got footless black tights, *rawk*! and a pair of footed black tights as well. Then I came home, pretty tired from my fun day out, steamed some fresh broccoli to go with my Fettucine Alfredo leftovers from the Italian restaurant my very nuclear family ate at Monday night. Then I did a little emailing, and downloaded some old tunes that fit my swoony state right now: "Orange Colored Sky" By Nat King Cole and "It had to be you" by Ol' Blue Eyes, and Billie, et al (it's a standard, many people have sang it). Then my sweetheart called. Then we talked 'til three, and now, here I am, in the present moment, sleepy and ready to seek out slumber. Goodnight Gentle Reader, if by chance you have passed this way. My black cat has just sidled on up to me, and whilst rubbing against my hand, bids thee a very good night as well.
posted by scribe at 10/25/2006
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